Since I’ve been home, a lot of people have had a lot of questions for me. My favorite though, is “So, how is motherhood?” What a loaded question!
It’s hard to sum motherhood up in a few words. Each day it changes into something new and different. In the beginning, and still sometimes, it was simply surreal. Lately, the word that comes to mind is just fantastic, although I have to admit that sometimes it can be frustrating too. But I think the easiest way to sum the whole experience up (so far) is just pure, absolute joy.
That doesn’t mean that everything is perfect. I mean, I’m 22 and living with my parents; my little family is split now as Paolo is studying in San Francisco. But looking into that little baby’s face and knowing I have been given the opportunity to help shape into the best man he can be is just amazing. Watching him learn and grow, even when it’s just him learning to put his fingers into his mouth, is so very sweet.
I never thought much before about what having children would be like; I just saw it as something I would do someday. It’s difficult to truly grasp the way it will feel before it happens. When I was pregnant, I spent a lot of time reading about taking care of babies, what to buy, sleep training, etc., but I wasn’t prepared for the emotional aspect of being a mother. Now I understand the desire to be a stay-at-home mom, or why mothers are overprotective, and especially why everyone told me that little boys are the sweetest. I originally wanted a girl, but now I am so very thankful that he’s a boy; I can’t imagine anything sweeter than that boy’s smile as I walk into the room.
So if you were wondering, yes, I am enjoying motherhood. I will spare you any more cliches and mushy stuff and just assure you that I am overwhelmingly happy with this beautiful little boy.
Ciao for now,
Kathleen
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